Today, after being anorexic for nearly 4 years, I went to the bookstore to look for a book on recovery. Instead all I saw were bookshelves stocked with hundreds of weight loss books, so I skipped dinner instead. MMT

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I'm sure you're beautiful, there's no need to starve yourself for "beauty".

ROCKER1220 is correct. Open up to a friend or family member. Dealing with eating disorders is extremely hard on your own and it helps to have a shoulder to lean on. Talk to anyone, it'll help, and you'll eventually get through it. :)

I'm not sure it made you think *enough*, though. Do you think those books are there to help people, or to make money? More specifically, do you think those books are there to help *you*? Just because it takes longer than a bullet doesn't mean you're not killing yourself--please, please don't.

No, ROCKER1220 is incorrect. People with eating disorders don't starve themselves to death for "beauty," otherwise they would stop when they resemble slightly underweight fashion models and not concentration camp victims, not when they die of heart failure at 56lbs.

I suffered from anorexia for the past 10 years of life. I am 21 years old now, and have spent the past 16 months getting myself up to a healthy weight. Recovery is hard. You need more than just the assistance of a book. It took me 8 admissions to 7 different hospitals, dying in my sleep and getting to the point where my insurance would not cover treatment for me anymore before I finally had the strength to take matters into my own hands. This time one year ago, I was literally bed ridden and had to go to bed at night listening to my mother sobbing, praying that I'd still be alive the next morning. Now I have a job, I'm back in school and my life is better than ever. I never believed it was possible. I honestly believed I was meant to suffer the way I did and that it was the only way for me to justify my existence. I know better now. You can recover, and you can get better. Don't listen to what anyone else says - media, friends, family. You deserve to do this for yourself. Call your insurance company, find out what options are available to you. That is your best bet if you want a chance to find real happiness again. Anorexia will not ever give that you. Please trust me on that, if nothing else. Anorexia kills and maims its victims. I lost so much more than weight. I've lost friends, I've isolated my family. I have irreparable heart damage and osteoporosis. I know even four years in is a long time, but it is never too late. Don't give in just because its not what our society supports.

my sister suffered from anorexia as a teenage. she admitted herself into the hospital at 63lbs. i was a kid when this was happening and too young to understand, i just remember one time asking my mom why my sister looked like a skeleton and my mother answering she didn't; she was 'just fine.' my sister is now thirty, and still doesn't eat a lot.. but just enough to get by. you don't need to let the media and your peers effect you. it's not too late to go back to the bookstore and say 'i am better then this' at the weight loss books.. and 'i am good enough for this' at the self-help books.

You probably get a lot of advice and sometimes it is nice and sometimes it is the last thing you want to hear, but posting your MMT is a great step into recovery. I have anorexia nervousa and bulimia in my family. It took near heart failure to get someone that I am very close to seek help (and I didn't even know what was going on with her at that point). But she did seek help. And although 'cured' is a very tricky word... she is very well now, and recently got married. So, whether you want advice or don't, whether you know why you stuggle with anorexia or not, reaching out as you did today is a great start. But please, don't just have a start... make the journey and seek assistance from someone who knows how to help you. There are so many people who are there to help. Help them help you by helping yourself.

you are so beautiful you are sooo beautiful and i dont even know who you are. please love yourself and treat yourself well because your body and you are all you have in the world. ive been bulimic and anorexic, hated every inch of my body, and treated myself like shit but its not worth it. therapy helps so much. please love yourself. you are actually beautiful i wish you could see it

I experienced anorexia and I know that there are so many helpful websites out there - try searching for a support group, and you may be surprised at how many people out there you find who need you just as you need them for recovery. But much of it also comes from the inside. I love myself more than I ever did when I was anorexic, and it feels so great. Please respect yourself enough to try to recover, whatever that means. I would say good luck, but you don't need luck, you need a strong soul. I know you can succeed; you are brave enough to have posted this. Go and do it. Go.

i know that this post is old and i dont think you will ever see this but i have to try to get this to you. Please, Please dont worry about what ladys are "suppost" to look like. My girlfriend is gorgeous, i mean stunning and she is a size 11. What i am trying to say to you in my stumbling bumbling male way is that your beuty is not held in your body, its held in the intangable, your smile, your laugh, your kindess. Please will you go talk to some one? anyone, a teacher, a friend. look in the phone book i know that there are numbers for hotlines that can really help. There are lots of peaple out there just waiting to help you with this.

What MMT is the ad for weight loss tricks on the side of this page. :(

this site has helped me when I needed help. maybe it can help you too? www.recoveryourlife.com please give it a chance?

I'm sorry that there weren't any books about recovery. I know you might never see this, but your post touched me in a way that some of the others could not. As I sit here, crying alone, it's for you. After all the support that I've had in my life, I wish that everyone could have that. Because you deserve it!

The worlds view of things is messed up, your beautiful to the people who love you and thats all that maters.

you are probably such a beautiful person, please don't continue to be discouraged by recovering from anorexia. believe in yourself, realize that you are a strong person and others will believe in you as well.

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